Everything written here on my blog (apart from my name and address..:P) is an indigenous art of fiction ,
Resemblance to any real life individual( or couples) should be purely/merely considered as a case of coincidence

p.s. In normal life, coincidences often occur...;)

valentines day conversation, - a "sting operation" by god

The comments and the description of the scenario has been exclusively provided by the god himself...”true story”



He: hello
She : hii...happy valentine’s day
He: ya wish you the same (surprised but at the same time adamant not to sound surprised or jubilant)

[a brief pause]

She: man .... this looks weird na...i mean for past 3 years, those challenges to call exactly at 12:12,those whole nite idiotic talks....this time its so different....”kahitari veglach watt ay....bolna kahi tari roz kasa bawlatasarkha badbadat astos. Aaj gappa ka, sang na kahitari”....(trying to be kiddish and over-convincing)
He : what to say...i have no words left...(still unperturbed, bloody loser tries to show attitude when its a universal fact that he has none)
She: ehhh...please...emotional nako hovus ha...(childish, unremorseful and surprising tone...difficult to understand girls psychology anyways)
He: i am not emotional , but u took me into past ..(well, there he is showing his true colours)
She: come to the present na, live in the present
He: hmm... (ok not being sexist here , but obviously its difficult to find out the secret behind “hmmm...”..)

[ a brief pause]

She: so.....how are you?....missed me???
He: ok the missing part, well to be frank, not really ( well kiddo, stop kidding)
She: good , so how are you , kasa ahes???? (over excited tone , stupid girls who shout for no reason)
He: well, my blood pressure is normal, luckily no diarrhoea, dysentery etc....(unable to complete the full “dialogue” as a far superior voice cuts the amplitude of his sound waves)
She: ha...ha...no risk of heart attack, no one to punch u in the face..bla bla bla...screw you and your same old dialogues...
He: ya ,...i know i am lame...cant help it
She: ur the same (ooooh kinda disgusted tone)
He: are you bored already ( trying to avoid the humiliation i guess)
She: not really , the boring person in my life has gone far away..
He: ohh then good for you, but hey there were rumours that u urself had thrown him away...?
sHe: don’t trust rumours, trust your heart..

[another brief pause]

(he in a dual mind now, begins to think about decision control structure from c language, what –else, what –if)
He: now what does that suppose to mean .???
She: whatever u think (girls and their ability to talk in puzzles even god cant help it...phew!..)
He: so how is everyone at home?? ....swanand,uncle , aunty????
She: everyone is fine ...but hey u never asked me how i am doing...(anger...god likes it...;)...)
He: you sound well, u have been allocated the “space” which u wanted, u have been also granted the “break” which u wanted...
She: ya...ya...stop it...(high pitch voice )
He: u know what.......i still love your voice

[yet another brief pause]

( man this is making me bored, guys talk something)
She: hey....can i hug you through phone...???
(he is shocked, i think he almost had a minor heart attack, even god is shocked)
He: of course you can ...only if your reliance’s dhirubhai ambani isn’t watching...
She: he is not like your Vodafone puppy who follows you everywhere...
[he and she both laugh...god is happy]
She: i missed you ....(whoa! where did that come from...)

[and another pause....i hate these emotional dramas]

He: u think i didn’t miss you, for so long i have been waiting to hear ur voice...i stopd listening to music...nothing amuses me these days...
She: well, hold on...just a second...let me make u clear....this break isn’t over ok...(*my god* , oops i forgot i am the god here, this girls make me forget about my own self...poor guys ...*god help them*...sheesh i forgot again , im the god...why the hell i created these creatures )
He: ya well, i know (he laughs, now i don’t know why the hell he laughed here)
She: but i still love you as a friend (oh yeah, BITE ME)
He: well, you continue loving me as a friend and i will continue loving you as my soul ...(well, he has got a point here, lad i am proud of you, u proved today that u are a complete moron)
She: god, u always make me lose when i am winning ( .......... *god had a panic attack..)


P.S
“he “ and “she” are still in the “break ke baad” mood
And about god,
well he has joined night classes on human psychology...

A journey to conspire ( how i met zoya part 1)

“mom, i am going to attend those internet security camps, shyam uncle was talking about it right. I will be staying with him...
“yes, of course he knows, and i promise i will be back in time to answer my back papers”..i was talking in rather convincing tone

But her words echoed into my ears with a whirled perplexity...
“i don’t know what you are doing and i don’t know what you are going to do...but just remember we have supported you throughout and will continue to do so, just take your life seriously gaurav, and take care of urself”

All i had was enough money to survive a month or two, my laptop which had nothing more than my poetries , my fifa10 game and ofcourse snaps which were memories of all my friends. All the memories were trapped in my laptop and i wanted to take them all with me, incase i miss my friends – a stern reality

Im sure most of you all must have experienced journeys , some of you all must have gone through some “journeys to inspire” concept...
Well i had one journey...a journey that changed the entire entire course of my life...i call it “a journey to conspire”

3 days of perplexity (day 3)

[content suppressed] - as per the order of "high command"..:)

Flashback (summer of 2007)

watching terrible tv
it kills all thoughts
Getting spacier than
An astronaut
developing crush for people
I hardly know or like
I can't believe what i do
Late at night

I wanna know what it's like
On the inside of love
I'm standing at the gates
I see the beauty above

Only when we get to see
The aerial view
Will the patterns show
We'll know what to do
I know the last page so well
I can't read the first
So i just don't start
It's getting worse

I wanna know what it's like
On the inside of love
I'm standing at the gates
I see the beauty above

I wanna know what it's like
On the inside of love
I can't find my way in
I try again and again

I'm on the outside of love
Always under or above
I can't find my way in
I try again and again

I'm on the outside of love
Always under or above
Must be a different view
To be a me with a you

I wanna know what it's like
On the inside of love
I'm standing at the gates
I see the beauty above

I wanna know what it's like
On the inside of love
Of course i'll be alright
I just had a bad night...

source : Inside of love - Nada surf

3 days of perplexity (day2 -part 2)

i came home ,..and ya ofcourse shed some tears and got emotional and stuff...
had a peaceful nap...a free nap...an independent nap
got up and had bath, had tea..\
opened my laptop and read that email again and again,...mail from that beauty, that innocuous beauty
zoyathemystery@gmail.com

i replied to that mail

"ok so to attend those buddhist camps u said i should be free soul, free from all my commitments right..??
phase one is complete...
here am i...free from my commitment towards sadhana...
now what remains is commitment to college/studies..and commitment to parents/family...
I promise i will be free from both soon..
so plzz plzzz think again about your decision to not to carry your cancer drugs with u during the camp span...plzz carry them...
you will survive...we will survive...if we live, we will live together...and if we die we will die together...and no worries as u say we will be right up there amongst those shining stars...:).."

i sent this email, closed my laptop and cried like never before

3 days of perplexity (day2 -part 1)

Same old restaurant same old table ya ya...everything was just same....though i felt bit hollowness in the trivial part of my heart...i took a glance at the surroundings...nothing has changed and nothing will change...i thought
But then my heart started betraying me...i could see her memories everywhere
I told my heart to control itself but as often it would go on to listening its own echo, and i should say probably giving more pain than snake bytes
I needed some painkillers or anaesthesia..but i knew those wouldn’t have any effect on this undefined pain, a pain called love
Love is the only feelings that leaves equal tears and joys...though u will comparatively say happiness, but those tears of joys are completely different...the tears of love are internal...just like internal bleeding, just like a hairline fracture...the effects are prolonged
And as the bliss in love is unexplainable, so is the suffering.. its an unexplainable vicious circle, which is also unpredictable, god this love sucks.......
And i also couldn’t help myself in falling in love,
since no one purposely falls into this pit called love, its a trap
..we unknowingly fall into this pit...a pit having depth of ocean and way out is as high as sky, in other words almost impossible

I was battling between thoughts of my heart and brain just when i saw her glimpse, and i could make out from her facial expressions that she was sad...no flying kiss, no thousand dollar smile, absolutely nothing from her part
She was just sitting there in front of me, we both looking at each other
“are we doing it right na, you accept this rite?? She asked
And i thought this was the time to give my heart a shutdown command, i had to say something, something for her good, she was having problems, and no denial from my part as well
“I think its a right decision, lets try ut, c’mon 3 years , not a long time”...i replied..(whom am i kidding, its almost 300 light years)
“I think we will work it out, and of course 15,000 Vodafone sms scheme and yahoo messenger with video calling is there na”
I tried to get some smile on the otherwise ever smiling face which unsurprisingly today was very pale and dull
Few hugs and kisses followed later, which expectedly were so good yet so dreary
But it was going in the right direction (at list i thought so)

”just want to hold u and say nothing, just want to feel your heartbeat for me,...for the last time”
God ,She was romantic...i liked her for that...those romantic lines had always been my weak points...but today it was different...that last statement “for the last time” ruined every possible excitement in my heart
I wanted to say how you will be able to hear my heart beat since we have already killed my heart “mutually”
But i held my nerves and said
“i can hold u forever and my heartbeat will always say those three words
“i love sadhana, i love sadhana, i love sadhana..........”
" ohh gaurav.." she said and kissed me...the final kiss, ...and that was it ...she left, and i was stranded there trying to catch hold of her shadow which was never mine...

So finally it all had ended..on a good note rather...or that is how i was going to portray it to everyone ..”mutually”
Just 12 days before we were about to celebrate our 3 years relationship...it had ended...
India was about to celebrate its 63 years of independence, well i had got my independence 12 days before...and i was in certainly not in a celebration mood